Returning to Houston

I am going back to Houston in a few hours. I have spent the last couple of weeks with my family. One week was in the mountains of New Mexico with my parents and this the last week has been in Dallas. It is always good to step back and look at your life from a different perspective and this time has allowed just that. I am still with the same family and continuing working with the homeless, and a few other ministry opportunities. It has been nice to view the work and God's plan from a different view for these past couple of weeks. I have started to get restless in Houston. It has recently been a dry season with much warfare between my spirit and flesh and it seems that my flesh seems to be winning. I have heard many people talk about this time of struggle and temptation and I have experienced a little but never to this magnitude. I know that I must get used to this because this is a regular season in the life of a child of God. And from what I hear it normally gets harder in the future. I know what I should do yet it seems that my flesh is too strong and I cannot do it. This causes much frustration in my life. Not doing what I want to do and doing what I do not want to do. Sounds familiar. So with all of this needless to say it has left me very restless. It has nothing to do with the the people or situations but I have been there the past year and I am ready to move on. Yet I cannot go, because the Lord does not want it. I know that He will deliver me from this time. I have tried praying more, fasting, speaking with wise people, leaving for awhile, yet to no avail. He has shown me that it is not based on the situations or people or even me, but solely on Him and He will deliver me when it is His time. So I must wait, be patient and be obedient as much as I can be. I must not focus on myself or my shortcomings, but focus on God and His abundant grace. The cross must be my glory. Amen

-Brennen