Frustration Station

I think my biggest frustration comes from knowing that life, and my life in particular, is so much more than what I see or what I think. Yet I live my life to please myself. I live to satisfy my momentarily desire. My selfishness wins yet it creates a conflict in my soul for that is my flesh. I want to follow after God holding nothing back, giving everything. So when I live to please my flesh and not my soul it creates a deep longing for greater things and an unsatisfaction with my life. That's ironic, I live to please myself yet I am left unsatisfied. For the water that leaves you satisfied comes only from God. Nothing else can achieve that type of satisfaction. now the truly ironic part is that when one lives a satisfying life in God it often leaves us with momentary unsatisfaction. So the battle rages on. Do we satisfy our moments or our lives? I want to live a satisfying life yet all that I do satisfies my moment. Have mercy on me God. Give me the strength to be satisfied by you alone. Teach me to live in the moment but not for the moment.